Day 9: Dear Meredith... #AprilBlogADay Challenge
"What would you say to your
|This is my favorite board of ALL time. Books allow us to travel,|
even if real life keeps us in one place.
|Armed with materials from undergrad, I showcased different careers in theatre. |
I had not learned to laminate yet and this didn't make it into year two.
In looking back, I did feel good in this room. It had a stage, there was space to create and learn. All teachers should be as lucky as I was to have a room this large.
Second thing I would tell myself is: Always stand up for your curriculum, prepare as much as you can and pick your battles. In the first 5 years, working in a Transfer School I wrote 6 curricula a year- each 12 weeks long. That is 30 different curricula. Out of 30, there was 1 trimester where my choices were questioned and challenged. (Not for the right reasons though.) I stood by the challenged planning but untimely I had to rewrite 2 weeks into the school year. I had other battles that last year and this didn't need to be one of them.
The third and what might be the most important thing I would tell my younger self: Don't be afraid to move on. Life is too short to be unhappy. I should have moved forward after my third year, to find a new working community. I would always tell myself, one more year. I'll give it one more year. Then I should have really moved on after my 4th year, but again I gave myself another year. I would tell myself things like: I'll stick with it- for the kids...until so-and-so graduates...am I good enough to leave a place where I know I am good? Can a be successful with a different population of students? So much self-doubt had crept into my teaching practice, my confidence was gone. I cried at work, more than I would like to admit. I wish I had had the courage to do what I knew was the right move: leaving a place where I didn't feel welcome any longer.
My new classroom (above) after I made the decision to move forward.
Me ready for a drama class at my new school, that I can teach in the auditorium (below).